End of an era, start of a new one.

 
As brummymumoftwo  has said before some posts are written for reaction, some sharing advice or reviews but some, like this one you just want to write and get out there just to help you.

Today is my last day in my current job. I am leaving to follow my ambition of being a teacher. Scared- yes, excited – very!

I was due to start training September 2013 but due to my ill health after having Oliver and just not feeling emotionally ready, I deferred for a year.  Oliver has been attending a child minder 3 days a week since January now, but from September he will be going full time. I am riddled with guilt!!

Currently we get two days together (aside from the weekend) where we can do mommy and son things. I feel as if I am letting him down by sending him to a child minder full time. I know hundreds of thousands of mothers go back to work full time and send their children to childcare, and this is by no means me saying they are wrong, needs must at the end of the day, but for some reason it is sat at the back of my mind.

I also feel slightly selfish returning to education but know I am doing it for the right reason. Secure future for my family, happier mummy enjoying her job and also in the long run I think I will spend more time with Oliver.

I am sure he will love playing with children all day, and not be stuck with his mum all the time. I’m also sure the time apart will do us the world of good, absence makes the heart grow fonder.

I just hope I am making the right decision for my whole family and everything works out.

So watch this space, and if anyone sees me losing the plot slightly just give me a virtual slap!!